Fraidy Cat

It's amazing to me how scared I've become with age

I'm easily intimidated and completely terrified to try anything new

I could feel this getting worse and worse so I tried to be conscious of my thoughts and actions. 

In fact, it is part of the reason I signed up for my first 10k and now this 1/2 marathon

I wanted to finally push myself from my comfort zone.

Recently my training hasn't been going so well

 I need is someone to run with and coaching of some sort.

Someone suggested I contact the local running club.

so i did

Blue = his email

Red = my thoughts

We have a Saturday morning group run every Sat. at 6am 6am! you crazy? in the north parking lot. This is a big how big, friendly how friendly group of runners who run at all paces does this include my super slow pace? and we run anywhere from 7-13 miles. well which is it? 7 or 13!?

 

Get there a few minutes early and introduce yourself to me...I have the big mouth! Is that a physical description?

How will I know how far everyone is running? What if I can't keep up? What if I hold the group up? What if I am the oldest or youngest one there? What if I pass out at mile 5?

I know these thoughts are crazy and I am doing my best to just stop my brain and insecurity and just do it... but sometimes it's hard.

I wasn't always this way. There was a time when I tried out for school plays and was a cheerleader, and had a solo in chorus. Not sure when things changed.

Anyone else out there get this way too? Any tips?

This was when I was at my peak of Bravery

Today's Eats

• bfast- ww mini bagel, egg white, OG applesauce
• Snack -Larabar
• Lunch- leftover taco surprise, 6 corn chips
• Snack- hummus and Mary's Crackers
• Dinner- halibut, 1/2 cuke
• Dessert- 3 cookies
• Workout- took the day off
• Fruit Veggie- 3

I'll tell you who I will NOT be calling

Today I am driving down I75

a very busy highway

I see a Critter Control truck 

(Critter Control traps animals that are a nuisance- like moles, snakes, woodchucks etc.)

it is a pick up truck with cages on top of cages in the bed.

On one of the highest cages there is a cat THAT IS HIGHLY DISTRESSED

now,

1. What the F is Critter Control doing with a cat?

2. Why did they place this cat in a high cage driving 75 mph down a highway?

To say I was pissed doesn't even describe it.

I had already made up my mind on giving Critter Control a piece of my mind when I got to the office.

But as I drove on,

I looked in my rear view mirror to see this cat JUMP from out of the cage

roll onto a very busy highway

and thankfully- run to safety on the side of the road

(there is no doubt that he was injured thought)

It was amazing and infuriating all at the same time.

When I got to work I called the company but there was no answer and no voice mail

I emailed them and still have not heard back

So

I did what any good blogger would do

I'm writing about it

I also left a nasty gram on their website.

It appears as though this company is nationwide

I would recommend NOT using them for any of your "critter" needs

to capture animals is one thing

torturing them is quite another.

I'm pretty sure the truck I saw was from Fort Myers, FL since that is the closest office

I Googled "Critter Control Fort Myers, FL" and wrote a review of the company

I know there are animal lovers out there like me- so I wanted to share.

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On a similar, but semi- unrelated note

my very good friend Lisa just lost her 4 year old dog to cancer

So if you have a little fur baby,

be sure to give them extra, extra love (and maybe treats) tonight.

Here are my babies...

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BTW- didn't go to sleep early as planned. I added some more veggies to my diet today though and definitely felt more energized. Maybe there IS something to this whole "healthy eating" thing!

Today's Eats:

• bfast- ww mini bagel, cheese, egg white, OG applesauce, 2 coffees with NO SUGAR! (werd)
• snack- Larabar, Mary's Crackers with hummus
• Lunch- salad- 1 cuke, 1 tomato, 1/2 avocado, little feta cheese (there was supposed to be chicken but I left it at home)
• Snack- banana
• Dinner- Taco surprise (black beans, salsa, OG corn chips (6), cheese (pinch)
• Fruit/Veggie - 6
• Workout- Body Pump

I. Am. Tired.

I'm officially out of gas.

Yesterday I woke up at 6:30

am to walk the pups. Went back into bed and didn't wake up again until 11:00. I thought that would have caught me up a bit. But I guess not.

I'm just not sleeping thru the night and it's killing me.

(last night I had a dream I had a mustache, I woke up in a panic!)

lack of sleep, and the fact that my recent workouts have been brutal.

have just left me feeling drained.

Even Spin class- which I normally love- was a struggle.

So I am holding out until 9pm tonight and then I'm hitting the sack...

Unless the Bachelorette gets really good and I end up watching the whole thing

(which is a more likely scenario)

I'm loving this season.

And for those who are also tuning in

here is my prediction

She'll pick Ty or Kirk (Kirk I think is the best for her)

and Roberto will be the next Bachelor.

Just my thoughts.

and to prove I don't sit around watching reality TV....

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I just finished reading Beautiful Boy

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Great book- I would definitely recommend it. His son also wrote a  book called Tweak which I wanted to get next but my library didn't have it.

Instead I picked up The Time Traveler's Wife

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I didn't see the movie and knew little about it when I started reading. 

I CANNOT PUT THIS BOOK DOWN!

Today's Eats

• bfast- ww mini bagel, egg white, OG applesauce, 2 coffees
• Snack- Mary's crackers with hummus
• Lunch- leftover chicken and zucchini
• Dinner- Puffins with almond milk, 10 crackers and almond butter (crazy I know but it was what I wanted)
• Fruits/veggies- what are those?
• Workout- 45 spinning torture

** I'm considering a night cap... you know... to help me sleep :-)

The Daily Plate

Let me share with you my new obsession:

TheDailyPlate.com

This website is fantastic!

I usually avoid counting calories, but I've got some LBS I can't shake so I went to this site to see just how many calories I was taking in on a daily basis. 

To begin- this site has the calorie and nutritional information for just about every food out there. So far there hasn't been a single food item that I have not been able to find on there already.

The coolest thing about this site though- is that it gives you the break down of everything you eat.  Here is my nutritional information from yesterday:

It will highlight something if you go over your daily recommended allowance (like carbs).

It will also show this as a pie (mmmm... pie) chart

You can also track your water:

Another cool feature is the meal creator. I added a green monster on my list of meals, that way every time I have a green monster I do not have to list all the ingredients- I can just press my "green monster" meal.

And if you wanted to see how many calories you need to eat to lose a pound (or two) or gain a pound (or two) It will calculate it for you.

Awesome, awesome site.

Last night we watch the movie Youth In Revolt.

Loved it.

In it Nick Twisp

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 develops and alter ego “Francois”  who dares to do the stuff that Nick would never do.

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Francois is cool, swave, and dangerous.

Got me thinking about who MY alter ego would be

I would name her

Bianca

(mostly because that was my fake name when my girlfriends and I went out drinking)

She would have the quick wit of Juno

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The balls of Lindsay Lohan

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The attitude of the combined cast of the Real Housewives of New Jersey

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and the looks of Megan Fox (doesn’t she just seem like she’s cooler than everyone else?)

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What would your alter ego be?

Today's Eats:

• bfast- 2 eggs, 1 ww mini bagel, 3 cups of coffee 
• snack- Larabar

I got 99 problems but a blog ain't one!

It is the first day of Summer AND my 100th blog entry!

100 posts later and I can say with certainty that I feel like I am leading a much healthier lifestyle.

CLICK HERE to see where it all started

I've enjoyed sharing the journey with everyone- and want to thank all those who follow and comment, as well as those that just silently read.

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Today I will be keeping it short because Abbie flies home today
he's been gone for 2 weeks and I've missed him like crazy.


In honor of the 1st day of summer I'll leave you with summer pics from last year

Today's Eats

• bfast- 1 ww biscuit, 1 egg, coffee
• snack- larabar
• Lunch- brown rice with black beans, 1/2 tomato
• Snack- cherry bomb (banana, choc, 5 cherries, almond milk)

   

winner winner chicken dinner

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I won Lovin' Losing's giveaway!

I'm so excited. I never win things.

Be sure to check out her blog.

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On to my day...

Living on a budget is like being a little kid with an allowance.

I woke up this morning full of happiness ready to spend my $40
and patting myself on the back for not letting it burn a hole in my pocket during the week

I literally shopped at the mall for 5 hours.
I went from wanting:
shoes
perfume
dress
purse


but ended up with a pair of workout pants since my other pair was stolen
I also bought this water bottle for my long runs.


After shopping I finally got my butt into the gym
after being on break for 5 days.

Tonight I will definitely be using my foam roller because I am sore!

Today's Eats:

• bfast- Green monster, 1 egg, english muffin, feta cheese

• snack- Starbucks tall vanilla soy latte
• Lunch- Chic fil a- grilled chicken, on wheat bun (ate 1/2 bun) with lettuce, tomato and unsweet tea
• Dinner- "Healthy Moes"- brown rice, black beans, cheese, cuke, avocado,tomato, OG corn chips

• Dessert- cool whip with Anne's Graham Bunnies
• Workout- 3 mile run, 30 minute lower body and abs.
• Fruit/Veggie- 4