These are my confessions

My running confessions/realizations

• I do not like running.

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• I do like how I feel AFTER I am done running.

• Before every "run" day I am filled with dread.
• After every run I think to myself- I should do a full marathon.
• In this month's Runners magazine there is a quote that says "real men don't run 5ks they run half marathons!"  and I think- really!?- I'm pretty sure they meant to say marathon and somehow the word "half" got in there.
• Sometimes on my run I plan my wedding... and I don't even have a ring. And let me tell you, it will be a fabulous occasion. 

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• Once during a 4 mile run I tried visualizing the half marathon but really just planned what I was going to wear and how I will wear my hair (hey- whatever makes the miles go by right?)
• I think part of the reason I keep running- is that I like the discipline it requires. 
• I realized running is like a diet- you are only hurting yourself if you cheat (especially if you are training for a race).
• Speaking of diet- I am STARVING every single day.
• I'm also very scared to eat anything with fiber on my long run days- if you know what I mean.

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• Even though I can probably run 4 miles without stopping- I always do.
• Even though I am running about 15 miles a week it never seems easier.
• Sometimes 2 miles seems every bit as hard as 4 or 6 miles.

I'm going to try not to make every blog post about running- but when I started this blog I did it because I wanted to write about the highs and lows of trying to be fit. As I've mentioned before, I've always wanted to be a runner. It always seems like when I read about someone's running success story it always starts the same:

I started walking then one day tried to run. I added a half mile every day and the next thing you know I decided to run clear across the United States!

It made me crazy because I didn't think it could be that easy - and it's not- not THAT easy anyway. As I mentioned above, running is hard work (for me anyway) but I am amazed at how far I have come in such a short time. I can remember when I didn't even know how to breathe correctly while running. I remember when just running a mile on the treadmill was exhausting- and I always felt that I was in reasonably good shape. Running is definitely a whole other animal. But I'm pushing through. I know that when I complete those 13 miles it will be worth all the hard work. I just hope all of you can live through my bellyaching.

Today's Eats:

• bfast- Ezekiel English muffin, Horizon cheese slice, egg, coffee
• snack- banana, OG greek yogurt, kashi cereal (my new favorite snack)
• lunch- Panera bread veg. black bean soup with 1/2 ceasar salad (oh-so-good)
• snack- mini bagel
• snack #3- 1/2 Odwalla bar
• Dinner- salad- 1 cuke, strawberries, romaine lettuce, olive oil, vinegar and feta cheese
• Workout- 3.75 miles
• Veggies/fruit- 5