It's amazing to me how scared I've become with age
I'm easily intimidated and completely terrified to try anything new
I could feel this getting worse and worse so I tried to be conscious of my thoughts and actions.
In fact, it is part of the reason I signed up for my first 10k and now this 1/2 marathon
I wanted to finally push myself from my comfort zone.
Recently my training hasn't been going so well
I need is someone to run with and coaching of some sort.
Someone suggested I contact the local running club.
so i did
Blue = his email
Red = my thoughts
We have a Saturday morning group run every Sat. at 6am 6am! you crazy? in the north parking lot. This is a big how big, friendly how friendlygroup of runners who run at all pacesdoes this include my super slow pace? and we run anywhere from 7-13 miles. well which is it? 7 or 13!?
Get there a few minutes early and introduce yourself to me...I have the big mouth! Is that a physical description?
How will I know how far everyone is running? What if I can't keep up? What if I hold the group up? What if I am the oldest or youngest one there? What if I pass out at mile 5?
I know these thoughts are crazy and I am doing my best to just stop my brain and insecurity and just do it... but sometimes it's hard.
I wasn't always this way. There was a time when I tried out for school plays and was a cheerleader, and had a solo in chorus. Not sure when things changed.